Sunday, August 24, 2008

A Hard Week

"This has been a hard week for me. I am finding having my mother live with us very difficult. I guess, in my heart of hearts, I thought that over the years she might have changed. She hasn't. She is still the same, self-centred, opiniated, always thinking she is right, wanting to be the centre of attention, manipulative woman she has always been. My daughter wonders why I would think she might have changed. I have and I believe people can. I quess my mother doesn't want to. I believe she thinks that if she changes, that will invalidate her life. She will have to admit that maybe she wasn't always right or correct in what she did. I find it very sad. I believe that we are here to learn and grow. What then is a person's life worth if they have never grown at all,"I whisper.

Are you listening?

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Back on Track

"Autumn is just around the corner. It is my favourite time of year and when (one of 3 times) I try to get my life back on the track I want it to be on. I find summer terrible disruptive to a schedule. This summer has been really bad, and because I have lost all since of a schedule my health has suffered. I really need to get back on track and back into a routine. I have found having a little one and my mother around 24 hours a day very hard. I love both dearly but whereas before I was depressed because I was alone all the time, now I find myself craving "me" time. I never seem to have any. I have decided that Sundays will be for me. I will do what I want, when I want. The only constant will be mealtimes. I am sure this will help me feel better," I whisper.

Are you listening?

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